Never Imagined that I'll start blogging one day

A line in Bodhitree's GMD goes like this- "Gaon main saabun bech raha hai jhoot hai uska hasna."

Well it may be true in case of XLRI but do we need to rethink when we talk about IRMANs?
At least in my case situation is no different although I have stayed in remote villages but never had the feelings that I am having these days- Solitude has slowly turned into feeling of loneliness. I may not be selling soaps in villages but still working in an office setup that is very much similar.Why are seniors so much mollycoddled in India? When juniors show such behavior then every time even I have to dissemble sincerity and commitment when actually I feel like saying "who cares" or "what the F***". Not being yourself is not everybody's cup of tea and when you are short of other options then frustration keeps on mounting. Hats off to all those hospitality people with plastic smiles pasted perennially to their faces. Being a prisoner is much better than being a management trainee- at least they have fellows with whom they can talk freely. I was never fond of talking on cellphone and most of the times it acted as a landlines during my college days but these days I keep on staring it hoping that my stares will make it ring. Sound of its ring tone seems even more melodious than compositions of Mozart or Beethoven. Every time when I look at my laptop screen something within me says -"Don't you have anything else to do?". I shut it down just to realize that I have no other option than to reboot it or go for a walk alone in unknown city or go to sleep. I love to go for long walks but every time it is not feasible and there is a limit beyond which a human being cannot sleep. So the only option left is to boot it again and search for those green signals on Gtalk. Live is full of irony- when you are busy then you have a lot of things to discuss with your friends but when you are free and have ample time then you fell short of ideas and the chat just restricts to "Kya haal chaal hain - main theek thaak tu bata - aur kya chal raha hai -kuch nahin life as usual and then a BIG pause. A pause that has filled up life of management trainees like me who keeps on wandering to new locations with new set of problems.

I never dreamed of writing a blog but then may be blogging is one way of fighting that blankness which has eclipsed my present life.I don't know whether it will help in making things better but I am happy that it has kept me engaged for last couple of minutes.